Random thoughts...and a little preaching. :)

Change is inevitable. Change is hard. Change takes discipline. I hate change...well, some change at least. 

I wonder how many times I've said Today is a brand new day with no mistakes! ...Hmmm TOO many I'm sure.

Wow, so much is happening. This fall is almost too busy but it's been interesting already fo sho! I've been doing doing things lately very out of my comfort zone, like:

~I'm helping Sheryl and Lovina coach volleyball which is challenging, interesting, crazy busy, and fun. Why am I coaching you may ask?? Because I was asked and after praying and telling god how much sense it DIDN'T make, I still felt like He said DO it. fine...

~I spoke to around 80 women at a womens' conference and conquered one of my fears. WOOOT!Why, you may ask?? Because I was asked to do it and after telling God I'm not a speaker, I'm a SINGER, in case He forgot, He said to DO it.

~I will be leading worship at another womens conference this fall where far more qualified leaders will be...including my sis, but I'm trusting God yet again that He knows what He's doing. :) Yes, I was asked to do it, and although I WANT to say no, God has NEVER let me down. Why would He start now??

You may think these things are relatively easy for me to do. I assure you they are NOT. Each one has/will make me incredibly nervous, will cause me to desperately lean on and trust God, and has/will push me to my limits before, during, and after. Eric and I's relationship ALWAYS goes thru hell and back during these times but always also draws us closer in the end. Satan attacks at every turn, every vulnerable moment, at every moment of weakness he attacks...the bastard.

It's NOT easy but I know that every time I say yes to a challenge, satan gets a little more afraid of me. If God can trust me to obey Him, even when I'm scared and don't want to, then satan starts to freak and prob sends out more minions to attack. Awesome. I'm just glad I've got God on my side and He's proven Himself trustworthy. 

Satan, I don't challenge you to attack. You know my limitations, fears, and weaknesses but KNOW THIS...I will not give up, I WILL keep getting back up every time I fall and I WILL keep fighting til the day I die b/c i choose Christ every time and GREATER IS HE THAT IS IN ME THAN SATAN WHO IS IN THE WORLD. BOO-YAH!