What do I want to say? So much really, but I can't. UGH! It started on Monday am. I felt myself start going, mentally and emotionally, to the dark side. lol Which means I felt every fear and negative thought amplified times 10 and I felt myself crashing emotionally. When this happens, usually every couple of months around my t.o.m. it's not a very quick recovery and not pretty. but anyway, this time I stopped myself and said, these aren't legitimate fears, started praying and began to feel the worry and fear leave. Thank God. Then I got a call about my little sister that would've been devastating for anyone and started crying all over again, only this time it wasn't for me but for my family as a whole. Wow, this really sucks. I know God will get us through it somehow but I'm not looking forward to the process. God brings good things out of bad situations, this I know and believe, so we'll be okay. I still cried a lot.
On Tues I woke up at 5am with such a pounding headache that I stayed in bed until 2pm. CRAZY! I got nothing done that day but lay in bed or on the couch til it was time to pick up Eric from work. i guess its a good thing I didn't have to work. Thanks Jesus.
That brings us to today, Wednesday. I'm headache free, thank you for asking! :) I found out Rendall (my bro-in-law)did not get the job he was hoping for so now its going on day 20 with no job and a family of 5 to support. :( IT makes me want to cry when I think about it. I wish i was rich so i could send them money. I know you don't have to be rich to be generous but it's sure make it easier!
Tonight we had practice for Sunday am service. It went ok, a few minor bumps. I'm praying that everything goes smoothly on Sunday since it's baptism Sunday and you never know how things are going to go. My heart is always that people are drawn to Jesus and that they focus on Him, not us. Part of that is for them but I know part of it is to cover up any mistakes we may make too. :) it happens. I so desire for people to just go crazy and worship Him like they're at home and noone can see them. I think it'd be a different experience completely.
Looking forward to the rest of the week i think it HAS to get better! After all, our 1 year anniversary is on Sunday!! WOOHOO Im so happy with Eric. He is definitely my baby-cakes, my love muffin, my sugar britches. LOL Yes, i DO say things like that. haha Anyway, prob more on that later... ;) That's it for tonight. Peace
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